happy new year

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Tried to slow down and take a few minutes to soak in the last day of this year.

2018, like most years, was eventful. I had moments of overwhelming gratitude for this life I live and others where I found myself discouraged and defeated. I made some really great memories with my kids, but other times found myself raising my voice in frustration. There have been good tears.. and bad ones. I had days where I was loving my husband well… without condition.. and some where I just didn’t want to, I chose selfishness. I was able to trust God in some big things, and saw Him literally move in mighty ways… but yet I am still tempted to grasp at control.

When I think about next year… I have a mix of emotions too. There are some big unknowns, and if I’m honest that’s really uncomfortable. But sometimes we grow the most when things are uncomfortable. And while I’m sure I will still make mistakes, I really want to be willing to do whatever He wants. I want to be listening, quick to obey, deliberate, love others well, and be present. And like I was reminded yesterday…I want to remember that I am who He says I am. I want to live like that person, not the definitions

I give myself. 2019… its coming (in like a few hours haha). What do you think God is taught you this past year? Any thoughts about next year?

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pulling weeds, planting seeds

I’m not going to lie… I am really discouraged. It was one of those days I couldn’t quite see the light at the end of the tunnel.. 😭 which for me is pretty bad because I’m usually the “upside” kinda girl.

I committed to doing this “what are you grateful for today” thing every day in November (you can follow that journey on social media if you want to).

But today, I wanted to sulk. Today was hard. I didn’t want to be grateful.

But, as a laid down to go to sleep… I felt convicted.

I do have a lot to be grateful for.. way more then the amount of days in November.

And especially on a night like tonight, I’m thankful for a Heavenly Father who walks with us during those rough times, whose promises never fail. I’m thankful I get to be a mom.. even though it was not fun or easy today… I know it is a gift.

We have seasons like these as parents where we are planting seeds and pulling weeds… in order to produce a fruit later. I know this, I just need to remember it. So I choose to “think on these things” as I sleep tonight. And I’m very thankful tomorrow is a new day. ❤️

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adoption

It is national adoption day tomorrow. I’m so thankful for adoption and also for the journey leading up to it. Gosh SO. MANY. EMOTIONS. So many times I have felt out of my league. In way over my head. But I’m learning God didn’t invite us into this expecting that we will always have what […]

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dragon breath

So every. single. morning this kid sneaks in my bed. Some days I wish I could get the extra few winks in… so I am not going to lie, I get a little annoyed. And don’t let this pic deceive you.. he wakes up 100 percent. 😳 Haha. Today, I tried to be thankful for this […]

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bimini baby

Luke and I were extremely blessed to have a chance to get away for a few days to Bimini in the Bahamas. I love anything tropical. I love water. And the Bahamas is just about the prettiest water there is anywhere. For real, have you ever Google Earthed the Bahamas? The water is aqua, even […]

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summa

What an amazing summer it was! Florida Keys, St Pete Beach, Singer Island, Lake Geneva, Lake Placid, Legoland… We got lots of water, sunshine, and fun!  

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when i grow up

Jax and Josiah have birthdays this month! So we threw a little party yesterday. They have been talking alot about what they want to be when the grow up lately. Josiah wants to be a police officer. And Jax an astronaut farmer. He wants “to grow food on the planets and sell it to the […]

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heavy

May is filled with so many amazing things. My son Jax graduated preschool and turns 5, my other son Josiah turned 4, and we just had Mother’s Day last weekend. And… summer starts! And while these events bring so many smiles, there is also a sense of sadness. It is hard to explain, but today […]

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direction

I like having a plan. It sounds like something that I should go to a group counseling session for: “Hi, my name’s Jenny and I need a plan, no seriously” Can anyone else relate? I am a little over half way through this study from Priscilla Shier called Discerning the Voice of God. Guys, it’s […]

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haiti march 2018

We had such a blast this past week in Haiti. Because of so many generous people, we were able to bring close to 600 pairs of shoes from Ellie’s Shoe-be-do. 17 huge checked bags! We passed out the shoes in three different areas in Haiti. Each distribution went so smoothly (probably the best ones yet). […]

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