jax turns 7

He is SEVEN.

I keep thinking this kid can’t possibly get any more handsome.. and yet he does. He is brilliant and has a brain that I am still trying to figure out. He is passionate about everything. He’s really funny.

You changed our lives forever Jax. We love you dearly.

Per his request we had a very low key “bug” party.

josiah turns 6

Our boy is SIX. Josiah is full of life. He has big feelings. My favorite expression of those feelings is his squeaky laugh. He also can’t help busting out a dance move when music comes on. He feels the beat yall.  He gets excited about things really easily. The kid is so athletic it is ridiculous.

I think going from 5 to 6 may have been his biggest year of growth (not necessarily physically, although he is a giant). He has come so far this year.

Thank you God for the gift of Josiah. He has forever changed our family and he is so precious to us.

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jax turns 6

I blinked and my baby boy turned SIX. He’s intelligent, funny, particular, charming, handsome, and so much fun! I love you more Jax!

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baby steps

When this little boy first came to our home he would react in ways that didn’t make sense. For example, if there was an emotional moment (happy or sad) in a movie or tv show… he often times would do something odd like punch the person closest to him or go in his room and knock something down.

He had feelings.. but didn’t know what to do with them.

As I sit here tonight I think about the progress and growth he has made. We are watching a movie… and there was a sad part. Instead of doing something explosive.. he came over and sat with me gently. He’s relaxed and secure. Next month he turns 5 (I know he looks like he’s 7). That’s means for half of his life he has lived with us. I am super grateful for these glimpses of redemption… because the first half of his life was a rollercoaster.

I’m just so thankful I get to see his story play out. We are still in the beginning in so many ways… and there are still times this is super hard. But God is good. He heals. He restores. I’m already seeing this. God will redeem. Just like the meaning of this guy’s name. ❤️

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give me a break

Give me a break.. Give me a break.. break me off a piece of that Kit Kat bar! Actually.. we do utilize chocolate therapy quite often… but this post isn’t about that today.

I am learning after almost 15 years of marriage… we need breaks!

We need to be able to get away together (and honestly we need to work better at this.. it is hard with four kids)… like vacations, date nights, even a night away here and there.

But, we also need to provide protected time for each other to take breathers.

Parenting. Marriage. Work. Friends. Family. Ministry. Neighbors….  Life is well, very full at times. Not bad.. just a lot.

I think of Jesus’ example in scripture. Him and the disciples had been going going going… and Jesus stops and says, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest (Mark 6:31).” Jesus invites His disciples to stop, sit, be still and be renewed.

We need to take breaks on purpose and with purpose. Not just doing something to waste time.. but time to get away from the loud. Be still and listen. Collect thoughts. Be renewed.

We need to be intentional.

And wives, can I just talk to you for a minute? We need to give our husbands the chance to do this.. guilt free.

Think of it as being on a team. Sometimes the other person needs to tag out for a bit. And if we think of this as being a thing we are doing for each other TOGETHER.. it doesn’t become a “me vs him” thing. Are there going to be seasons where he may need more breaks than I do? And vice versa.. Yes.  Absolutely.  Let’s give them freely. Make it a priority.

Get with your hubby.. look at the calendar and pencil in some sanity hours for you both! Some together.. some individually.

Happy resting!

 

 

ellie turns 11

I don’t know what it is about this year.. but Ellie has seem to have grown SO MUCH. She is truly a gift. And while some aspects of the preteens haven’t been easy… I could go on for days about how proud I am of the young woman she is becoming.

Happiest of birthdays to my oldest baby, Elena Joy. You truly are a joy.

pulling weeds, planting seeds

I’m not going to lie… I am really discouraged. It was one of those days I couldn’t quite see the light at the end of the tunnel.. 😭 which for me is pretty bad because I’m usually the “upside” kinda girl.

I committed to doing this “what are you grateful for today” thing every day in November (you can follow that journey on social media if you want to).

But today, I wanted to sulk. Today was hard. I didn’t want to be grateful.

But, as a laid down to go to sleep… I felt convicted.

I do have a lot to be grateful for.. way more then the amount of days in November.

And especially on a night like tonight, I’m thankful for a Heavenly Father who walks with us during those rough times, whose promises never fail. I’m thankful I get to be a mom.. even though it was not fun or easy today… I know it is a gift.

We have seasons like these as parents where we are planting seeds and pulling weeds… in order to produce a fruit later. I know this, I just need to remember it. So I choose to “think on these things” as I sleep tonight. And I’m very thankful tomorrow is a new day. ❤️

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adoption

It is national adoption day tomorrow. I’m so thankful for adoption and also for the journey leading up to it.

Gosh SO. MANY. EMOTIONS. So many times I have felt out of my league. In way over my head. But I’m learning God didn’t invite us into this expecting that we will always have what it takes, but He does promise that when we don’t, He still does.

I love what another foster parent said, “That’s our hope and assurance – that what’s completely out of our capacity and control is absolutely in His.”

You guys have heard me talk about the bittersweet aspects of adoption. It’s beautiful. It’s heartbreaking. It’s a lot. But I’m so thankful we said yes. I am thankful to have an opportunity to love beyond my own means. To feel Gods love in a way I never had before.

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dragon breath

morningsnuggles

So every. single. morning this kid sneaks in my bed. Some days I wish I could get the extra few winks in… so I am not going to lie, I get a little annoyed.

And don’t let this pic deceive you.. he wakes up 100 percent. 😳

Haha. Today, I tried to be thankful for this moment. I don’t know how many more years he will do this. Probably not long. So I’ll take the early morning snuggles, and questions, and dragon breath, and more questions, and the chance to start the day early with a little guy I love a lot.

when i grow up

Jax and Josiah have birthdays this month! So we threw a little party yesterday.

They have been talking alot about what they want to be when the grow up lately. Josiah wants to be a police officer. And Jax an astronaut farmer. He wants “to grow food on the planets and sell it to the countries.” Ha!

Our friends dressed up as what they want to be too! And we had lots of water fun outside.

I did a horrible job taking my camera out for photos.. because I just came off of a long wedding yesterday and wanted to just be in the moment more than capture it. But I did grab a few!

Thanks to everyone who came and participated! Was such a great afternoon for my boys.