the sparrows and the lilies

If He dresses the lilies with beauty and splendor, how much more will He clothe you?

If He watches over every sparrow, how much more does He love you?

I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but God loves you infinitely more than you can imagine.

There are times when we can hear the scripture in Matthew 6 that talks about not worrying about tomorrow and trusting in God’s provision. We know it in our heads, but it can feel hard to truly believe that sometimes.

This song has been a favorite for me recently.. I pray it encourages you too.

sunsets are my love language

So thankful for sunsets. They are like a warm hug from the Lord.

And thankful that both of our homes face west and we get these ridiculous views.


This is the second full school week for my family. It has been different with Luke and the kids running out the door each morning. Its loud beautiful chaos (Where is your shoe? Did you grab a mask? Everyone have their homework?) and then… quiet.

(Now don’t get me wrong, I am totally thankful they get to be AT school. I know many of my fellow parents don’t have that luxury right now and are having to add the “home school teacher” or “virtual learning assistant” to their many hats they already wear. I see you guys.)

But, these quiet mornings before I jump in to work have given me a chance to actually think and to spend time with God. I am not sure why quiet moments during quarantine were so hard because we weren’t doing as “much.” In some ways it felt like we were just tackling a day at a time. Now that I have had the first chance in months to stop, it’s been a weird rush of emotions and thoughts. It is kind of overwhelming to be honest.

So many changes have occurred the last 5-6 months. The world is obviously in a very different state and what is the new normal? And like everyone, the effects of the world’s craziness have impacted our family.

Things that were normal for us had to be put on hold (which can I say my kids have been so flexible.. which is incredible given their tendencies to struggle with transitions. They have been rock stars and I am so proud of them). Now we are starting to do some of those things again… but they look so different. We have also had many close friends deciding to move and transition to new things (which is both exciting and hard). Foster care is in a really weird state. There aren’t many children coming in to care (which is most likely because kids aren’t in school or in normal activities where things are reported), which also makes me sad thinking about the possibilities (please pray for these children).

Work for me has been total confusion. My team and I have only shot 3 of the 21 weddings I had scheduled for 2020 for Captured Photography. My other photography/marketing work ( has significantly died down because my clients are primarily hotels, resorts, and restaurants.. and they are hurting big time too. I have started to reach out for other job opportunities because I just don’t know what the future holds. I told someone yesterday, I feel like I have my hands in like ten different pots right now… just waiting to see which one will actually start cooking something. Not feeling like a failure is hard.

But, even as I write all that, I am telling myself I have so very much to be grateful for. COVID, the economy, etc… they have had a much worse effect on others. I can’t complain.

And this weird time has brought many blessings. We had so much time together as a family. We were able to live at our Lake Shack for most of the quarantine which was a huge plus. In many ways it has grown our family dynamic and our marriage.

I just wanted to get on here and update you (the five people that follow this blog, haha). Also, I wanted to share what I was learning this morning…

Some days we may not be sure which way to go, which track to take, which path to follow. This time has brought on a lot of those questions for a lot of us. You may even find your feet planted in the ground at a fork in the road. How do we get plucked out of this swamp of indecision? How do we sort through all these emotions wrapped up in 2020?

We turn to God and His promises. He already knows where we’re supposed to go. He will show us the way (He doesn’t keep things a secret). We just need to ask.. and be patient as He answers us in HIS timing.

I may not know all the answers right away, but God promises peace in the waiting.

Jeremiah 33:3

Isaiah 30:21


I have been kind of MIA on this blog for awhile. To be honest, this year has got to have been one of the weirdest years ever.

2020. You keep surprising me.

One of these days, I may be able to come on here and actual share what I have learned through this season of quarantine, homeschooling, racial tension, business stress, and more.

But for now, just wanted to say hey.

And here’s my favorite part of the day… in one of my favorite places.



give me a break

Give me a break.. Give me a break.. break me off a piece of that Kit Kat bar! Actually.. we do utilize chocolate therapy quite often… but this post isn’t about that today.

I am learning after almost 15 years of marriage… we need breaks!

We need to be able to get away together (and honestly we need to work better at this.. it is hard with four kids)… like vacations, date nights, even a night away here and there.

But, we also need to provide protected time for each other to take breathers.

Parenting. Marriage. Work. Friends. Family. Ministry. Neighbors….  Life is well, very full at times. Not bad.. just a lot.

I think of Jesus’ example in scripture. Him and the disciples had been going going going… and Jesus stops and says, “Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest (Mark 6:31).” Jesus invites His disciples to stop, sit, be still and be renewed.

We need to take breaks on purpose and with purpose. Not just doing something to waste time.. but time to get away from the loud. Be still and listen. Collect thoughts. Be renewed.

We need to be intentional.

And wives, can I just talk to you for a minute? We need to give our husbands the chance to do this.. guilt free.

Think of it as being on a team. Sometimes the other person needs to tag out for a bit. And if we think of this as being a thing we are doing for each other TOGETHER.. it doesn’t become a “me vs him” thing. Are there going to be seasons where he may need more breaks than I do? And vice versa.. Yes.  Absolutely.  Let’s give them freely. Make it a priority.

Get with your hubby.. look at the calendar and pencil in some sanity hours for you both! Some together.. some individually.

Happy resting!



god is always

It’s been awhile since I wrote on this thing. Yikes! So, I apologize!

But, I am still thankful for this little blog. It has given me a place to share what’s on my heart. It has also been a way for me to go back and remember where we have been as a family and what I have learned along the way. If you are one of those people that pop over every once and awhile or have followed along the way, thanks! And to new friends, hello. I am glad you are here.

I wanted to share something that has been such a huge for me the past few months. These truths are so important and have really changed my perspective. They are all things I “knew” or heard before. But, I feel like these things have come to life right in front of my eyes and lifted so many burdens off my back! I hope they encourage you as well.

So, we just started 2017. Happy New Year by the way!

Did anyone else sit and wonder, what this year will bring? I feel like our family has so many unknowns ahead, so I found myself thinking a lot about the future. And I came to this conclusion…. I have no clue what will actually happen this year. I really don’t. But, I do know this… God is always.

What does that mean? Basically this… You don’t know what you’re going to face next week, month, or year, but you can know that you don’t have to face it alone. God is always with you. God is always in control. God is always good.

Philippians 2:13 says, “For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him” (NLT).

Do we realize what this means? That we don’t have to survive this year on sheer willpower. We don’t have to make it through the week in our own strength. How big of a relief is that? We don’t have to walk around exhausted and stressed out of our minds anymore. For those who know Jesus, we actually have Him working in us! He gives us the strength and the power to do His work.

Not only is God with us and in us; God is also for us. Romans 8:31 says,“If God is for us, no one can defeat us” (NLT). The Bible says we can trust God. He has promised to give us what we need.

“Out of my distress I called on the LORD;
     the LORD answered me and set me free.
The LORD is on my side; I will not fear.
     What can man do to me? —Psalm 118:5–6

Doesn’t it make a difference if you know someone is for you?  Someone has your back?  For those who know this, life doesn’t seem as overwhelming. The God of the universe is your father! And he is a good, good father!

Because of his goodness, God gives us things we don’t deserve, such as forgiveness, salvation, and second, third, fourth (etc) chances when we mess up. If you have not experienced God’s forgiveness, I encourage you, make things right with Him today. He isn’t some far off, scary God up in Heaven.

He wants to know you.

This next year may not be all flowers and rainbows. But that’s ok, because when you know God, goodness can come from all circumstances. 

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”– Romans 8:28

This fostering thing has taught me this particular lesson over and over. Its hard, SO hard, sometimes. But, I have seen SO MUCH GOODNESS, even in the midst of pain. I have experienced God in a way I probably would not have without those hard times. And I am so thankful for each experience we have had, good and bad.

He has a purpose for every season of your life — the lonely seasons, the sad seasons, the seasons of success, the seasons of waiting, and the joyful seasons. Your life is not a random series of occurrences. God knew and He knows. He uses everything. God can draw good out of each event. That means every single thing, no matter how dark or shameful or bitter you feel about it, God can bring good out of it.

So trust as you look ahead to 2017 that…

God is always with you. God is always in control. God is always good.







Yikes. It has been awhile.

I am sorry! Life got busy.. and blogging became harder. But, I am hoping to be back more and more in the next coming months!

A quick catch-up on life for us…

We still have this cutie.

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He has been with us for 6 months now. Time surely flies. We are still uncertain of his future.. but we are trusting God has a wonderful plan for his life. God has used this little man to teach our family so much. Going to four children was a super hard transition for us, but I believe those hard times have brought us closer to God and to each other.

We have been sneaking away to the lake house as much as we can. It has become such a retreat for our family. The time we spend there is so precious.

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And we just got back from an amazing trip to Haiti. Ellie did her annual shoe drive and we were able to bring over 500 pairs of shoes! This was her first trip with us. It was so special. I will be posting more images and details from this trip soon. Here’s a little peek.

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i stink at conversations

Are the days of face to face interaction with your friends fading away?

Sometimes I wonder if it’s because we feel know a lot about what’s going on with someone before they even say a word. Probably because we saw their recent update on Facebook or their last Instagram post.

(Let me park here and say, I am not anti-social media. I think there is a lot of benefit to it! But, I also think it has effected our ability to sit down and have a meaningful conversation)

And how many times is what we see on social media, a true representation of how someone is really doing?

I have felt really convicted of this lately.

It used to be that when you wanted to talk to your friend, you walked (or drove) over to her house, sat down and had a long chat, or maybe you gave her a phone call. I know I have replaced that with texting and facebooking for sure.

I don’t want relationships to just be surface-y. And it’s hard to get deeper. It really is.

I could think of a ton of excuses of why this is hard for me and a lot of other young moms out there. Just the fact that most of the time we have our young ones with us when we hang out with a friend! The thought of getting out of the house and trying to squeeze in a few minutes of conversation between the mommy duties is hard. BUT.. I think it’s still worth the try.

And though those things are valid excuses I have used before… I have a confession to make. There’s something else that can keep me from have face to face conversations and relationships.

I think it’s my INSECURITIES. It’s so stupid, but so true.

Sometimes.. I am scared to have a face to face conversation because I have less control of how someone may perceive me. What if I say something without thinking and offend them (which will happen sometimes, I often have no impulse control)? What if I don’t listen enough? Ask enough questions about them? What if they ask me something personal, could I be vulnerable? What if they don’t like the way my house looks? What if they don’t like the way I discipline my kids? What if I hang out with them in person and they don’t seem to want to hang out again?

Am I the only one who goes through this ridiculous struggle?

Heres the part that’s been hitting home lately. God made us to BE in relationships. First with Him… but also with others. That is how He designed us to go through this journey we call life. And without other Godly women in our lives, we begin to alienate ourselves and rarely show our true colors (just our ones we post on social media.. the ones we have control over). I don’t want to do that anymore!

So here’s some ways I am going to try and fight this battle.

First, I am going to STOP OVERTHINKING everything. My social anxieties often start like this… A friend will share something, I respond.. but then comes the.. overthinking.

Here’s the dialog in my head…

“Maybe I shouldn’t have tried to empathize and respond with a time that happened to me too? Does that sound like I am just being insensitive to what they said?  Maybe I should have just listened and not responded? Or is it good that I replied and they don’t feel alone on that struggle?” Back and Forth… eek. Stupid, right?

This process of wondering and trying to guess what someone is thinking is a rapid route to feelings of insecurity and stress.

So, I am going to STOP overthinking.

I can definitely work on listening more and being slower to speak or respond. But, I also don’t want to be scared to be myself and say what’s on my heart.

Second, I am going to just DO IT. Just try my best to spend time with my friends. Even if I can only get with that friend once and awhile… make the most of the time we have together. And stop talking about things don’t matter when we get together… start talking about REAL things. Find out how I can support and love my friends better. I am going to stop just assuming I know how they are doing because I see their posts on social media.. and really ask them.. face to face.

I know my first priorities right now are my relationship with God, my husband, and being a mom (and my kids are young, so this is extra demanding). But, I also need to step away from my fears and insecurities and have some girlfriends I can love, be challenged by, and walk with.

Thanks for letting me share! Hope it made sense and maybe even encouraged someone else who struggles here…

And I am thankful for those friends in my life who have let me put this into practice (and who love me despite all of my weird insecurities.. haha)

prayers with my little ones

So, I totally got this idea from my friend, Shelly, so I can’t take any kind of credit for the creativity of it.. but I wanted to share because I feel like this has been an awesome thing in our home.

It’s incredibly simple too.

We just took some craft sticks… and wrote down people we love, causes we care about, places we want to support… and then made a stick for each one.

(The girls decorated them with markers for fun too)


Each night before the kids go to bed they can go and choose a random stick (sometimes we do multiple) and they pray for whatever is on that stick during our family prayer time. It’s been awesome to teach our children (and ourselves) to think of others and be lifting them up in prayer. It’s so important.

Anyways, maybe it can be something you start in your home!

So thankful Shelly shared this with me.



So I have been doing this study on Tuesday Mornings called Loving God with all your Mind. It’s been really appropriate timing for me to learn so many of the truths in this book.

Something big I took from it this week is a concept she talks about… Blooming where you are planted.

She goes over the passage in Jeremiah when the Israelites were held captive in Babylon. And even though they weren’t home in the land God has promised… the text says that God allowed it for a season. He even went as far as to instruct the Israelites to live life, build their families, etc (Jer 29:7)… Bloom where they were planted. And when the time came, God delivered them.. because He has plans for a future (Jer 29:10-11).

But, it’s in HIS perfect timing.

I thought about life and how there are times when we are in jobs, relationships, trials that aren’t quite where we thought we would end up. Or maybe you just had a big life change recently… and it’s hard to understand why God allowed it. Why did He uproot you?

I don’t really know the answers.

Maybe it’s to grow our faith. Maybe it’s to prepare us for what’s next. Maybe it’s to draw us closer to Him. And maybe it’s just for a season (like the Israelites).

But I do know that just because things have changed or we are in a different situation, doesn’t mean we can’t keep growing and flourishing.

We have a lot of fruits and veggies growing now in our backyard. And I am not an expert gardener, but I am getting better each year. Haha.

Often times we grow our food from seeds, so they start out in a smaller container. Then when they are mature enough, we uproot them and put them in a larger pot or box. Sometimes, this process will happen a couple times before a plant is mature enough to go in to the ground where it will permanently be.

Maybe it’s true with us too? God uproots us and changes everything we know so that we can have an opportunity to grow bigger, deeper, and eventually bear more fruit. But it is all with the intention of preparing us for the future. For the place he wants to plant us to be.

My hubby and I have had a passion for adoption for a few years now. And originally our desire was to adopt from a country we love so much, Haiti. After this last trip in March, we felt like we needed to make a move and get the ball rolling. But, as I started to contact agencies and heard no after no (there is a 2 year waiting list for adoptions right now because agencies have reached their small quotas). I became discouraged. Why would God put a burden in our hearts specifically about this country and then keep closing the door? So again, we are in a season of waiting.

I am not sure why, honestly.

But I do know that God has given us these burdens for a reason. And just because we can’t adopt right now from Haiti, doesn’t mean that we can’t still love on the people of this country. We can support from here. We can do what we can to raise awareness for the half a million orphans that live in the country. We don’t have to just be still.

And we can continue to seek God and what His desires are for our family. And trust that changes to our plans… may just be a chance for us to grow and prepare us for HIS plan.

And for fun.. here are a couple pics from the backyard…



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